Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Hanging out with J.I. Packer...

Good morning...

This morning I am looking out the window in my hospital room... (Soooo thankful that I have a window! And yes, this is the actual window...). I am on the monitor and the little lady is a whir of activity. It always brings a smile to my face when I hear & feel her jumping around inside. 

She continues to stay in there...good for her. And my symptoms have pretty much subsided.  I have an occasional contraction, but nothing strong or consistent.  And because my symptoms have stabilized, I got to take a shower!!!

Talked with our doctor this morning again, and the plan remains the same. Watch & wait.  Wait & watch.  Don't do much.  Lay low.  And stay here in the hospital.  

So, while I have been "hanging out" over the last 2 days, I have been reading Packer's "Knowing God" again.  I had put it down when all this started and am happy to be back at it.  I had read a portion of chapter 2 the day before I came in to the hospital...and it proved to be a timely reminder that a wonderful part of knowing God is the "being known" by him.  It has been a comforting thought in these days.

"What matters supremely, therefore, is not...the fact that I know God, but the larger fact which underlies it-the fact that he knows me. I am graven on the palms of his hands.  I am never out of his mind.  All my knowledge of him depends on his sustained initiative in knowing me.  I know him because he first knew me, and continues to know me.  He knows me as a friend, one who loves me; and there is no moment when his eye is off me, or his attention distracted from me, and no moment therefore, when his care falters.  This is momentous knowledge.  There is unspeakable comfort-the sort of comfort that energizes, be it said, not inervates-in knowing that God is constantly taking knowledge of me in love and watching over me for my good."

And so, I am comforted to know that I am known by him and that his care never falters.  I will be doing more reading today...more thinking...more laying low and resting.  

But it is all under the watchful eye of my heavenly Father, so my heart is at peace.

 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.  In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths." Proverbs 3:5&6 

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